The tumultous solitude

Life is good.Its ecstatic to have everyone around.Cheers and content exults you all the time.Its like a dream come true.Or it can be said 'the' dream coming true.But dreams have a nasty habit of going bad when you are not looking.You get that old familiar feeling yet again.You make the wrong moves, let the evil overpower.Its like trying to piece together a broken mirror to have a look at yourself.Your image shifts with it, and you may cut yourself in the act of finding yourself.And the weird thing is its nobody's fault.If you wanna have a look at the guilty, you just need to look in the mirror.The smart thing to do is ignore it, just walk away.But you are not that smart always.

You may have your buddies nosing around graciously all the time.You may have your parents with their never ending inquisition.You may have your love worrying about you all the time.You may have the world running along with you always.But they can't always be there.You can never run from the feeling.If it has been a greater part of your life then it wont just wear off by itself.It may seem like a stretch but thoughts like this always cross the mind when you are away.The sad thing is sometimes you are so far past the point-of-no-return that you couldn't remember what it looked like when you passed it.You don't wanna go back.But the tragic thing is its not always about what you want, but what you need.You will get a tsunami of these confounding thoughts that you have tried to put in the box for a long time.You are pushed back to get raveled inside your own mind.This may seem like nightmare sneaking back on you.In a night mare every choice you make is the wrong one.You feel like yourself back in the gaping hole of your past.You would think that you are damned.

On the contrary, Its not the case anymore.Sometimes we get lucky and things change.This time your solitude will not pose threat to your present joy but will make you realize the importance of it.There is a small voice in your head which says you should be glad.Some say you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye.Well, its your solitude that made this revelation before its time.At least you've something to be grateful for.You will get a strong desire to hold your love tightly in your arms and let everything go.You wont care about any grudges or past battles, you will just run into her arms to feel alive again.There lies the difference.Its not like that you haven't been in the dark before.But this time you have all the strength in the world to hope for the light.