Perfect memory

I was in school.It was 8th of may.We had a celebration of mother's day in our school.I insisted my mom not to come saying that no one really bothers to come.Actually the real reason behind it was that i got scared that my mom would hear about my not-so-famous tales in the school by my teachers.I attended the celebration.It was surprisingly awesome.I wished my mom could see it.I felt real guilt about not inviting her due to my stupid fear.I went home.Hours passed but i just could not get over that guilt.Finally, when i couldn't take it any more ,i stepped out of home and went to buy something for my mom.I bought her a gift.And when i got back home, and saw that she was alone in her room, i mustered the courage to go to her and give her that gift.I was not that smart to choose an appropriate gift for her, well i was not that financially strong either.Come on..i was in school, you can't expect me to buy a gold necklace or platinum ring!Whatever,she just unwrapped the gift.It was a doll.How much more stupid a gift can there be! But to my utter amazement she loved it! i am not saying it because she told me so, but i m sure of it 'cause i could see it in her eyes.Obviously, she didn't expect anything like that from me.She was delighted.She showed it to everyone else around.Came back and hugged me.Years have passed.Memories have burred.But i just can't forget that day, that glow on her face, that delight, that moment worth lasting.

We are very lucky to be born in this world where we can make perfect memories like these without any limit.It is said that the most memorable moments in our life are when we feel some thing we never felt before.We do things we never did before.We meet people with a different point of view..people who change your perspective of things, who drive you out of the wreckage where you have given in, who show you that whatever battles are raging inside us there is always a choice, who show you that there is hope.You asked me what you do to me?..You give me memories.These moment where you wish that time could just freeze.Memories made up of your smile, your happiness.I wish you could just understand the feelings of the bumps in my heart when i listen to the sound of your laughter.I wish you could feel the gravity of every moment that i spend with you.I wish you could see the most beautiful face on earth when accompanied with a smile like i do.I wish you could just trade places with me and experience that heavenly feeling being with someone like you..What you do to me? You give me the assurance that even though if the world slips through my fingers, even if the sun seems tired, even if i have a big fall and the earth doesn't make a sound..you will be there.That is the best thing you could have ever given to me.I will be ever grateful for these treasured memories.Thank you for making my world better than its ever been.Somethings never change.I am so glad they don't.That is why its very important that you understand that i will be there tomorrow,the next day and the day after, you just have to say 'stay'...

The tumultous solitude

Life is good.Its ecstatic to have everyone around.Cheers and content exults you all the time.Its like a dream come true.Or it can be said 'the' dream coming true.But dreams have a nasty habit of going bad when you are not looking.You get that old familiar feeling yet again.You make the wrong moves, let the evil overpower.Its like trying to piece together a broken mirror to have a look at yourself.Your image shifts with it, and you may cut yourself in the act of finding yourself.And the weird thing is its nobody's fault.If you wanna have a look at the guilty, you just need to look in the mirror.The smart thing to do is ignore it, just walk away.But you are not that smart always.

You may have your buddies nosing around graciously all the time.You may have your parents with their never ending inquisition.You may have your love worrying about you all the time.You may have the world running along with you always.But they can't always be there.You can never run from the feeling.If it has been a greater part of your life then it wont just wear off by itself.It may seem like a stretch but thoughts like this always cross the mind when you are away.The sad thing is sometimes you are so far past the point-of-no-return that you couldn't remember what it looked like when you passed it.You don't wanna go back.But the tragic thing is its not always about what you want, but what you need.You will get a tsunami of these confounding thoughts that you have tried to put in the box for a long time.You are pushed back to get raveled inside your own mind.This may seem like nightmare sneaking back on you.In a night mare every choice you make is the wrong one.You feel like yourself back in the gaping hole of your past.You would think that you are damned.

On the contrary, Its not the case anymore.Sometimes we get lucky and things change.This time your solitude will not pose threat to your present joy but will make you realize the importance of it.There is a small voice in your head which says you should be glad.Some say you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye.Well, its your solitude that made this revelation before its time.At least you've something to be grateful for.You will get a strong desire to hold your love tightly in your arms and let everything go.You wont care about any grudges or past battles, you will just run into her arms to feel alive again.There lies the difference.Its not like that you haven't been in the dark before.But this time you have all the strength in the world to hope for the light.

Cold laws of cause and effect

Here is a short story i heard from someone a long time ago.I can't remember his name though.Its funny how sometimes people who make the deepest impression on you are hardest to remember.Its was a story about a girl.She was beautiful.But sadly her beauty was stained by grief and ills of her life.Her parents abandoned her when she was 18.An age to live the life was replaced by cold days in hell for her.She met betrayal, hate, agony, failure at every step she took.And the worst part is she could not even understand where did she go wrong? She felt lonely like hell, full of despair, lost all the reasons to live.

Well, though her life was full of dark times, there was a silver lining too.He had someone who was quite close to her, who could relieve some of her pain.A boy, who loved her.At least he thought he did.And she also loved him back.He wanted to be with her, to have a normal life with her but sadly her past always kept sneaking up to her.She could just not let go of the pain of the people who left her, all alone.The boy didn't want to give up on her.To make her life better, became his only reason to live for.He tried his best to relieve her from everything.He tried to make things normal so that he could have her forever.But still he just could not see the untainted smile on her face, the ultimate exultation.

One day, frustrated, he went for a walk to the church.He knelt down upon his knees before God and screamed "Why can't i get what i deserve?".While he was kneeling on the floor out of no where a priest appeared with bedazzling robes and possessing a divine aura.He spoke in a deep voice to the boy,"Tell me son, what do you want?".Guessing by his appearance, the boy took him as some type of divine incarnation.He instantly begged to him to just make the girl he loved happy.The priest replied that he could do that but also warned him about the laws of cause and effect.If he happen to cause his wish upon the girl there will be some effect on his life too.He thought that this was all he ever wanted so he was ready to put every thing at stake.Seeing the boy's determination the priest replied,"So be it".He, then invited the boy to look into her new life.Amazed and bewildered, he obeyed.But when he saw it he was totally taken aback.She was in the arms of a guy.He couldn't recognize him but he could surely see true love for him in the girl's eyes.He was dumbfounded.Now he understood the cold laws of cause of effect.She was happy but he couldn't be with her anymore.She wouldn't even recognize him anymore.With tears in his eyes he ran for her house to get his love back.

When he reached her house he found the door locked.He went round the back of the house to get in through the window.Suddenly he found himself standing in front of the window of her room.He saw her.She was beautiful.But there was something else.Her beauty was glowed by a smile on her face.He could sense the joy in her eyes.She closed her eyes ,said grace,"Oh lord, i thank you for the life you've given me,the happiness, the love, and i really wish that it stays like this forever"..There.He finally found it.The ultimate exultation on her face.Seeing her, he thought of cold laws of cause and effect.No matter how it came, he finally succeeded in his pursuit.He finally understood this was all he wanted.Staying with her was just not it, loving her was.He just wanted to see her happy and he did it.He couldn't be with her but it was alright.

Whatever you cause, there will be some effect.You just need to see it.You are always the master of your free will.You can just wander around running after whom you love, trying to be with them, having expectations from them.Or you can love someone all your life even if you get nothing in return.You can just hold her always or you can live your life in her one smile.It'll always  be your choice.Love is not just a feeling, its all about what you do.That is why it is called as 'Making love'..

Such great heights

Its may feel like a long weary journey since you were born.Been through so much.Learned many things, met different people, went places, sometimes you may have loved your life, sometimes you may have hated it like hell, ran through a purple patch, saw some dark times, achievements, joy, love, betrayal, heartbreaks, scars, and so on.That sums up almost all your life.Except the fact that this circle of life is still going on.It may sound quite boring to many, asking the same old questions,'Why should we be running in circles forever?'

Simply, 'cause your are destined to do so.You have to stand up every time you fall.You have to go on someway or the other.The gift of life is bestowed upon you and you are supposed to live it to fullest.If you see it the other way around life does give you second chances.You are privileged to be who you are.You may have lived some cold days in hell but you gotta wait for the bright sun of heaven.The grass is not greener on the other side.However far down the wrong road you may have walked you can always turn back and trace back your steps to a better way.You will always retain the power to change your world even if you need to destroy the former and a build a brand new.You can always start from the beginning.And do you know the best part in all this?..You don't have to be on your own!!

You may feel like you don't need anyone.You'll be fine on your own.But the truth is, that's not how we were made! We will always need someone to be with.Someone with whom we can build our memories with.Someone to love, someone to hate, someone to shout at, someone to apologize, someone to laugh at, someone to cry with, someone to miss, someone to share our secrets and regrets, someone to advise us, someone to drive us out of the wreckage where we have given in.You will surely have your ups and downs even when you are with him but whats more important is, you'll not be alone.You will find someone who holds the key to your unhappiness, who knows exactly how to make your world a better place and is completely willing to do so.You will be like puzzle pieces which are perfectly aligned.You will share moments with that person which will last till the end.And if you are willing enough to be there for a while, someday, together, you will break the boring circle of life and you'll find yourself soaring so high above, to a place worth living forever, making memories worth lasting.At such great heights every thing will be so perfect.No one to tell you where to go or where to stay.You'll have unbelievable sights, indescribable feelings like a magic carpet ride.You'll wave down at the world far below.People may scream,"Don't be insane","Its enough,Come down now"! But you know what....we'll stay!!

I think god can explain

"Why did this happen to me? Where did i go wrong? What i've done? What should i do to make it all right? How can i get out of it?" People spend a life time searching the answers for these questions.Well, today is gonna be your lucky day 'cause i m gonna give you a simple solution for all these questions that keep haunting you all the time.Just forget the damn questions!! Yeah!! its simple isn't it? Sometimes ignorance is a real bliss.Just quit whining and enjoy!!

There are many things in this world that we don't understand and some we never wanna know.I cannot see a single feasible reason for anyone to still nose around for some baseless answers.You may keep on asking again and again "When the hell is every thing's gonna be alright?".Well i got news for you, Nothing is wrong to be made right!!Its all in your head.You can be mad like a mad dog at the way things went.You could swear, curse the fates.But when it comes to the end, you have to let go.

Sometimes its meaningless to demand answers.Sometimes its best to go with the flow.Sometimes its best to let god handle it.You may doubt your faith at times when you see some minor glitches in your life.Its because you are unable to see the big picture here.You are unaware of the grand plan which is supposed to happen.You just have to believe that something good will come out of it.Something that you thought you wouldn't have deserved in a million years.Everything happens for a reason.And you would be quite unlucky if you keep on searching for the reason and miss the real effect.God has plans for all of us and we are not 'divine' enough to question his mysterious ways.Some may like it, some may not.

I know life can be damn harsh sometimes.But you will surely experience its flying colors too.I know its not fair enough some times.But then again, it never is.There is always a light at the end of the tunnel.No one can guess how long the darkness will last but if you keep walking, you will surely get to a better place.You will get to the moment of clarity, where you get reborn again.You will experience an inch of life where you will not be answerable to anybody, nobody to tell you that you were wrong, nobody to tell you that it could've been
better, nobody to let you down, you'll have no one to prove, you'll experience the things that are real, you'll have someone who really do care, you'll feel like you've never felt before, you'll be totally through your nightmares into your new dreams.You'll find yourself in a place where you could finally let your heart decide.In that small inch, you will be free.No matter what happens, nobody can ever take that inch away from you.You will get that split second when time slows down,  just stay with it and you can live a life time.

Bullet lodged in the brain

Life knows two miseries,getting what you don't want and not getting what you want.Your whole life circles around it chasing its own tail.Sometimes you feel too close to the thing you have ever wanted but just can't reach it no matter however you spread your hands.Every time you get closer to the edge your fear of falling over pulls you back again.The ghost of your past haunts you to its best which forbids you to move on.Every time you try to convince yourself that this time you're gonna reach it a bomb goes off in your head and the bullet that your life has put in your brain moves a deadly,microscopic distance.And all your thoughts and hope goes blurry again.The colors that you could have had in your life start to run and get smudged and gray again.

When you see the chance to start your life all over again the past evils always come along for a ride.You will find yourself standing on the crossroads and there is no going back.And the odds are you will surely choose the path which drives you away from the wreckage where you've given in.But sadly,the past will always have a way of sneaking up.You'll hear its echo, like a bad replay.You'll misunderstand, get mad at every one who remind you of it,even if its all in your head.You start to get delusional that there is a blind spot in your head which has all the answers.

This is the moment when you get a binary choice.You can keep yourself burning in the fire of all the heartbreaks and scars of your past, with eyes shut, too scared too move, waiting for your present to bleed to death.Or..you can crawl out of it, help your loved ones, make sure the fire doesn't spread and try to fix it.And the only way to do this is to forgive yourself!! Its was not your fault that this happened.Let them think whatever they want to.Its your life and you've gotta live it the way you choose, with the people you choose.Stop looking for your shortcomings.You didn't have any.There is always someone out there who thinks you are perfect.Believe that.Dreams do come true.There are happy endings.You don't get to decide what you deserve.The people who love you will do that for you.Just speak, admit, confess, 'cause words always retain their power.Talking helps.It can set everything straight.By forgiveness you set free the only enslaved soul that you have...yours!! Believe in yourself, the choices that you make.Its time to let go of the bullet that has been lodged in your brain for so long.No amount of pain-killers are gonna alleviate the pain.All it needs is your free will.Choose your happiness.And complete exultation will require the cleansing fire of your confession and trust.Through this cleansing fire, we will spark a new spring of life!!

Lucky you!!

Well this time i am writing just for you.This concerns you and only you.I am gonna confess one thing for sure that i envy you.Yeah..'cause your the luckiest person on earth!! Well there is no need to look shocked 'cause i have a pretty factual explanation here.You maybe surprised to know some of these facts but if you really trust them, you will find that you are really the lucky one!

You must have already started babbling some not so good words for this post.Saying that its total crap, how can you be the luckiest person alive? What's so special in you? What extra gift have you got? You are just like any other person.Well then dear its your lucky day 'cause you are about to know the long forgotten secrets of your life.There are some gifts bestowed on you and you must at least remember them.There is someone who will love you every single moment of your life, there is someone who cares for you always, there is someone who wishes that you are alright, there is someone who prays daily for your success, there is someone who misses you like anything, there is someone who will make you feel special even though you're not 'cause you mean the world to him/her, there is someone who will be there for you at every step of your life and break your fall every time, there someone who can always fix your broken heart, there is someone who will laugh with you, cry with you, and will at least shed tears over your grave, there is someone who has dedicated everything for you, someone who can sacrifice for you, feel for you, understand you, believe in you, watch over you and even die for you.

Are these reasons not proof enough for your sheer luck? Well they are good enough for me.And honestly speaking, they should be more than enough for you to believe that you are the chosen one.I really don't see any scope for more expectations.And if you do then you are really out of mind and god help you! These are the things you could've ever asked for.And trust me they are not that easy to get but rather easy to loose.So don't waste time whining about your fate, just cherish each and every moment of these gifts you got from life.Don't take that someone you've got for granted 'cause if you loose that person it'll be like kicking your own luck.So just embrace your life, value your loved ones, believe in yourself, and you will remain lucky forever!