In the end

Sometimes I dream about the days I used to walk 200 m towards college like a zombie cursing my life. But when I reached up to the corner, I saw her standing, waiting for me. As i walk close to her, I could begin to see a pretty smile on her face. No complaints. No regrets. No discontent. And my heart skips a beat. I never let my fantasy go beyond that.

However smart you think you are. No matter how much maturity is stuffed inside you. Life still finds a way to slap you in your face. You like to enjoy the burns of the cleansing fire so much that you start to miss the pain when the flame is gone. And you just lie wondering what went wrong? Why did I do it?

In my dream, I wanted to run to her, hug her tight, and whisper to her 'I will never let you go'. But I fear that if i take one step closer, she will fade. Or I could see someone else standing beside her. I wait for her to wave to me, call my name. But for some godforsaken reason, she doesn't.

Its a funny thing that when a person is with you can't help but criticize her for her fallacies, but when she's gone she seems to be the most precious thing in the world. Time drains all the love and empathy from inside you. And you voluntarily cut the chord of the last thing that connects you to the real world. And I stand there convincing myself that I was just there to help. That's what I do. I was never supposed to get involved. In the end I must feel lucky that I used to know you. And you were beautiful..

Complicated common sense

The other day one of my very good friends just told something we all commonly believe. There is always a balance in the grand scheme of things. Karma. As you soy you may reap. Light at the end of the tunnel and stuff. I also somewhat used to believe that. I mean its quite obvious nothing's forever. Whether its grief or joy it will turn into the other at some point of time. But then I remembered an incident not much while back. There was a boy, good bright kid, somewhere around in his teenage.He got in a bad car accident. Died on spot. He was the only child of his folks. I knew his parents. Nothing out of ordinary, cool, loving people. I have gone with this over my mind many times but I just cannot see how the balance of nature will pull a logic out of it. A couple of people who have worked hard and gave everything they could to their only son, looses him. The reason for which they lived their lives, made sacrifices has come to nothing. And the worst part is they have to spend the rest of their lives with this truth. Does it not urges you to question your common sense? Is there really any balance out there or just the illusion of it? Is it all random or fate?

For the sake of giving an explanation people will say things like "Everything happens for a reason". So can we infer that the reason behind this whole 'accident' was to provide a never ending pain till death to a couple of old people? Some saintly guys will comment that "A man cannot find peace(God) till he gives up all his worldly belongings". So here is a question to them. If we are all supposed to let go off this 'physical' world to meet the divine then which in hell did God took the pains to create such a huge universe and send a man to enjoy it ! Some say, and I truly second it, "The choices we make, makes us who we are".But I don't think its true always because I am quite sure that he did not choose to die ! So to sum up we can say that he was sent to earth to live his life, study hard, get in a good college, celebrate and die. He was not supposed to invent a cure for cancer or something. He was not supposed to discover some new planet in outer space. He was not supposed to get married, have kids. He may have wished to do one or more of the above but all his dreams died with him.

As always there is not all darkness and gloom in this world. Our Creator gave us a very valuable gift to deal with any kind of situation we may face - "Perspective". Let me explain with an example.There was a girl who recently had a very bad break up. She keeps on saying that 'this is the worst thing that will ever happen to her'. Now compare this situation with the previous one. Isn't the latter seems quite absurd now? Is it now unworthy of a guey to be down when he doesn't get his dream job knowing that there is a person who is ready to serve tables in order to avoid begging for rest of his life? Is it not primitive to be disappointed at not getting your favorite cuisine for dinner when there are people who are unsure of feeding their family tonight? But who can fight the human nature. However minute it may sound but rejection hurts, failure sucks and heartbreaks kill. And the worst part is there is no way to let go of this pain. We just need to find a way to live with it. 

Our country does not need a hero

After being aloof for the larger part of my life, I have lately acquired a trivial interest of knowing the world around me.It occured to me that the news didn't change much over the years..corruption is still at large, booming industrial sector, "Khan"s still rule the Bollywood and  our leaders are still The underachievers.That's the prime reason I had lost my interest in newspapers for first time.You can't expect any news to break the monotony!

A teenage girl gets molested by about 30 fully grown men.A guy gets beaten, shot to death and robbed by two guys in one of the most busiest areas of the city.The Odisha rape victim is in coma, the rapist roams free.The Mansa rape victim, just 17 year old, was booked along with her rapists merely for the charges of 'loitering'.In the same area of Punjab,some years ago, an activist-cum-singer got his limbs chopped off for supporting his daughter to pursue a rape case.On the other hand, our "respected" leader Mrs Gandhi becomes the world's fourth richest politician, as stated in Business Insider.Various other Indian politicians are soon to join the rich-club.Quite an achievement, isn't it?

We all know that there is something terribly wrong with this country. Some choose to look on the brighter side of things but I wish there were one for the victims' families and the people whose lives have been uprooted by the corrupt elements of the society.There is an obvious resentment in the hearts of many.Some criticize the government, some take a short-lived stand, some update their FB status, some blog about it (like myself!) and others just choose to stick to the Glamour and Sports updates!

Who are these people destroying our world? Well if you are looking for the guilty you just need to look into the mirror! I know there is a more than valid reason for it. Who would want to screw up there easy going lives for someone else. Why would a common man ,with a family to look after ,shall go after anyone allegedly backed by a politician/mafia.In this state of fear, we seek a saviour, who can deliver us from an 'evil' created by ourselves. Unable to find a hero, we reluctantly elect from ourselves a leader.A leader who promises us 'peace' in return of our 'silence', who promises us 'justice' in return of our 'rights'. There comes an ephemeral peace followed by worse than former conditions.Then we take our cry for justice to judiciary.And then comes a decade of frustrating pushed up dates in courts.By the time they reach a verdict, both the victims and the culprit had lived most of their lives in shame and luxury respectively.And then too there is no assurance of justice.

These facts does not undermine the supremacy of the constitution.They just reveal the drawbacks of the people.It just doesn't seem logical that how more than  a thousand people get intimidated by a dozen wrong-doers.Alan Moore said,"People should not be afraid of their government, Government should be afraid of their people." Isn't it better to judge such atrocities yourselves than leaving them to the loop-bound judiciary?
Many people say,"Our country is a mess".Well there is news for you,"You have to clean up your own mess!"
There is no point waiting for a 'Justice League' or an Extraordinary human or the wrath of God to solve all our problems.Just words won't do anymore.We've gotta look at the bigger picture here.We can no longer rely on our elected leaders 'cause we know there was no better alternative while choosing them.The fate of these abominations must rest in the hands of people itself. So for those who have had enough , Speak up, Act, Intervene.You won't be doing it for the people, you will be doing it for yourselves. And for those who are still not moved and choose to stick to the verdict-Shit happens!-go on waiting long enough to see yourself become the victim.Its time to turn ourselves from mere audience to the judge and executioners.It's not a revenge, it's retaliation.'Cause we are the ones who deserve to choose our own fate not some sociopath scumbags.

"Through suffering comes redemption, 

From sorrow comes exultation,

Through the pitch dark comes the cleansing fire,

And through the fire we shall find the spring of new life."

Walking into Obscurity

I thought it would be adventurous to just stroll my way through the foggy path.I never realized that its fuzziness will increase exceptionally..I try to look back but all i could see is blind haze..Suddenly, I am blank..I can't think of what i was expecting..what did i really want...I am supposed to walk this boulevard alone.I can't give up..I can't loose my mind..i can't fall behind in this "human race"..I don't know whats waiting for me at the end..i don't know if there is an end..but the worst thing is i don't even know if it is the path i was supposed to walk? Is this what i really wanted? Is this what i always wished for? and then again is it too late for a self-realization? Do i not deserve to walk away? Are there no happy endings?
Clueless i call for help..I hope that someone might call my name..maybe wave..a face i know..anyone..  But i guess it is too much to expect. Maybe my voice is too faint to be heard.. maybe this obscurity is so dense that my call could not penetrate through...or maybe there is no one at the end who is gonna listen to me..
There is a stillness in the air..as if the world is urging me to make a choice.I can head back hoping to start it all over again..or i can cling on faith and just finish what i started...

Its a strange feeling when we realize we were always supposed to walk this path alone..We sure meet people, be with them, laugh with them, love them and but eventually we let them go..There comes a point in life when we just call all our shots but somehow we can't find our self in the right place.



I don't believe that any angels are watching over us, guiding us on our righteous path. I know
that my feelings are insignificant and vague in this big world .It doesn't matter if anyone understands me or the endless screams and untold wishes remain hidden under this numbness. I am not looking for some divine miracle to set things right for me.I don't need a hero i just want someone..anyone..who , for once,will come to me and assure me that it is gonna be alright.

The last goodbye..

Stay and wait..or pack and leave..Its time now.Time for the last hugs, time for our eyes to witness the last fading sun in this place..I know its nothing new.Happens all the time..but its like leaving home all over again.
Its a strange feeling when you see a face..and you are almost sure that you are not gonna see that face ever again. We sure did have our time..but its never enough..it never will be.The echoes of our laughter, maddening screams will always be buried in this walls. Learnt a million things in this term..some things worth remembering and others worth dying for.

Things are surely never gonna be same again..You are going to step outside a world to walk into another.While returning home you will realize that there is nothing different  about it..the only thing changed is you..You realize that there is something more than just me and you.This is the time when most of us take refuge under hope. I too hope to see their faces again. I hope someday somewhere we will meet again, plan again, laugh again, fight again. I hope that goodbyes are not forever.This hope goes to live on forever with the memories.

Although we loose a lot leaving this place but there a last moment...one little moment.. we say our last goodbye to friends..remembering their faces as they are..as we drive on into the night. Many things are gonna cease from now on, but no one can take away that moment from us..and in this moment we can hope maybe there's never gonna be a last one after all !..

A little too much

An overnight transition from nothingness to everything has become quite normal these days.For one moment you are crawling through the day waiting for it to end somehow. And in the next, you live a lifetime!..Its funny how you see yourself change with the wind and just do nothing about it.
Sometimes we cover our faces with this thick mask of insensitivity for so long, that we forget the presence of any emotions behind it. Its heartbreaking when you find that the thing you believed in for so long was not really worth it.Our faith gets such a big blow from time to time.The real problem is we just cant stop seeking some  vindication, some supernatural explanation to the happenings we encounter.From here our journey can be bifurcated in two possibilities.Either we linger with our minor hope and wait for it to diminish into nothing.Or we can get lucky and experience something so powerful, so remarkably ecstatic that will fuel back our faith to its peak and ,though only for the briefest of moments, we are not confused!
After all these years i have learnt one thing.. whatever happens to us, wherever we go, whatever we do..at most points of our life, we will be alone..Sure looks like a depressing lesson but on the contrary these are the most important times of our life.They define us, change us, make us choose.These are the times when we give up seeking companionship.These are the times we seek redemption. Solitude is the worst 'gift' given to us.It is definitely not a  hiding place for introverts.Its a place where we can think, cry, scream, sing, dance or do whatever we wanna do.When its just a little too much out there, we can remove our worldly mask..and in that moment of our life..we can be free.

Up close and personal

Have you ever come through a feeling when you could feel the elation in the world around you, you can smell the fragrance of the wind blowing your way..have you ever felt it..the so called inner peace! Well thats a big no for me.Why cant everything just fall into its place for just this once.Why when everything 's going alright, all i could think is to crash and burn.
Sometimes i get the feeling maybe it is because of some guilt ,some unfinished business.But i still cant think of what it is n where it is.This feeling of insecurity for no reason is a killer.The feeling when somebody just looks at you with an awkward looking face, you wish you could put a bullet hole in his head.Or else you could bludgeon  him to death.And while everyone will stand there n watch,scared.You will laugh with scorn.No feeling of remorse..or any other humanly feeling..Anger ,pain, betrayal, hatred..these are the only real emotions to be felt.
How i have come to this..what have i become..why cant i return to be the carefree guy i once used to be.Where is that damned inner peace.Why do i feel just lyk killing half the world.Some say 'violence is never the answer'..then what is it..I have tried love..and i don't believe it worked.I ceased to believe in it.I don't remember when i last came across a feeling that din't involve hurting others.I have become selfish.I really don't care for anyone.
I feel like i have lost my integrity..the very last inch of it.I just need to feel something..anything..that is real enough to pull me through all this.I don't have the slightest idea what it is but i believe i really need it.I don't see this happening anytime soon.But i just can't give up hope of it..'cause hope is all i really have now..It was always all i really had..

Invisible truth

If someone asks us to define 'darkness'. .we sure have heard of it.Most of us will simply say darkness is the 'absence of light'.We can't measure it or define it independently but we all know it exists.Same goes for 'cold' that is absence of heat.The point is that there are many things in life that exist because we believe they exist.It can be said that a person who is delusional enough to live in his own world of dreams and believes it to be true is as sane as any other practical person in this world.

There are many allegations in our lives,the invisible truths, that exist 'cause we believe in them.Truth that can't be explained.Why we are refreshed by the fragrance of a flower.Why do we love to live in beautiful colors.Why a laughing baby puts a smile on our face too.Why sometimes some other persons's happiness gives us the tears of joy.Why the rain sometimes urges us to dance and sometimes the same rains makes us sad.Why the rage running all over our body is calmed down by the mere glimpse of gentle eyes.Why we get a strange feeling when we are with someone and the feeling fades when that someone is gone.Why we believe in god and his plans for us.Why we hope for a miracle even when all odds are against it.These beautiful truths have been and always will be a part of our lives.Well actually these truths are the times we really lived!

Some times these truths fade.We become,what we call, more mechanical.Anything may cause that..loss,betrayal,loneliness,heartbreak..these emotions are large enough to force a person to stop believing and step into the dark.But as we know the darkness doesn't exist! We heard a lot that time can heal all wounds.Maybe it does.But it doesn't wash away the scars.Sometimes we need more than just the truth.Sometimes all it takes is a leap of faith.And the funny thing about faith is that you cannot explain it.You just have it! So throw the odds out the window..What you believe is true!!

Last regrets

Imagine sitting under a tree, surrounded by endless grasslands.You would stare at nothingness for hours.'cause nobody is there with you.You will be waiting for someone to appear..anyone..But you will give up the wait at some point of time.And there will always remain a regret, maybe you needed to wait for some more time..maybe you would have seen someone appearing at the horizon..a familiar face..a face you were longing for.That someone may wave at you..or maybe call your name..or run towards you...or that someone may just vanish in the winds.

Maybe you didn't get enough time.The time you deserved.To be with someone, to feel alive, to take chances, to make mistakes.You can regret forever for that or you can choose to be thankful for whatever time you got.Maybe you didn't get what you hoped for and you start to live your life in denial.You get hypochondriac..darkness-loving..creepy kind of person.You start spending most of your time in introspection and become a people-hater.

You gotta keep walking though..'cause you belong to the human "race" and you really can't afford losing it.All the time we keep longing for a connection..a moment when time slows down a bit and you begin to feel alive again.You wait for a person who tends to understand you more than you do yourself.You wait for being connected.

There might be a lot of things you wish you never did.Its ok.Its perfectly normal to make mistakes.But you need to understand that you and only you make it all right before its too late.You can change things.Make different choices..redeem yourself.'cause if its too late then you wont be able to let go of this regret all your life.Who knows maybe today is the last day ( I sure hope its not) to say "I am sorry" to someone..the last day to say "i forgive you"..the last day to say "I miss you"..the last day to say "I love you"...maybe after today one of you or the connection between you may cease to exist..and you may forever be left with the last regrets and late goodbyes...

Life and the death of memories..

There is a time in life when we wish to become a distant star in the sky that can just watch people laugh, have fun,live their life...and we could just find the divine content in their happiness.Without even letting our existence known to them.Today i understand how it is the worst experience one can ever imagine.People close to me say it was none of my mistake.Even i try to convince myself it wasn't.That means i am supposed to be angry, or rather furious to those who made my life hell.But i want to confess something.Yes, i was mad like a mad dog at the way things went.I cursed the fate.And the people reminding me about it.But in the end, all i am is upset.Because in all this i lost something.My memories.And that is the most precious belonging of human being.I am watching my memories burn in to hell fire.And i am standing so close to the fire that it hurts me strikingly.

The saddest truth of life is that we get to decide what memories to build upon, but we don't have a say in which of them will stay clean and worth remembering.I know i don't have a clean slate.Confession doesn't wash away the guilt, not of that i ruined lives but that i wasn't strong enough to protect the memories that i never wanted to fade.I know i will move on.I always do.But sadly i will never be able to besmear this blind spot in my brain..
And the worst part is i don't want the things to go back to normal.I m not going to commit the same mistake again.'cause mistake aren't committed twice.The second time its a choice.I want to crash and burn.I want to let go.I want to be out of this world where truth and trust are mere words.Where people forget every good memories they share on the introduction of one bitter one.Where the trust falls in a single blow and all good things you did become your so called master plan to ruin others life.I am not innocent.But there is nothing in this world that i hate more than wrong accusation.It kills you.I wanna die and get reborn again.I wanna be free.I want to sleep and forget.I want to dream again.I know my whining will not get me any where but i wanna break down these wall closing in on me.

I do believe that everything happens for the best.i just wish i could see the best in this.A day from now i will be 21.Its really been so long.I saw love, pain, passion, trust, betrayal, adventure, life, death and much more.God knows what else the future has in store for me.Just returned to where i began."What goes round comes around".."The circle of life"..the epic ironies.I may have laughed at them, if i remembered how..

Back to you

When entertainment turns into a surreal reflection of your life,you would be a lucky man to laugh at it..
The things which were once fit for our laughter, become the ironical part of our life.You can't runaway from it..'cause you are the one who dug up this pit to eventually fall into it.There are somethings in this world that we cannot understand.Things we never wanted to choose..how we feel.But it was never for us to decide.
Sometimes, the world becomes too small for comfort.The wait for a 'happy ending' lingers all the way.It feels like there are no choices in this world.Nothing but a straight line.Illusion comes afterwards when we look back upon ourselves, and ask 'why me' or 'what if'..Its like looking back on a forked lightening tracing back our own steps to nothingness.Different choices would not have made much of a difference.We would standing at the same place, just asking a different set of questions..
I read somewhere, that if you wanna serve in heaven, then just do good to its very extreme..and if you wanna reign in hell then just fall to the deepest and the darkest pits of sin.The two doors are less than a hand's reach to man for all there life.But still we spend most of our life standing at the crossroads of stairway to heaven and highway to hell immersed in the hangover of our own feelings.
People say 'love and be loved'..is that it? the truth..Live for it, kill for it, even die for it..Is this our salvation?
And what if its just a dream from which you will wake up someday and you will find no rescue waiting for you.What if you come back to reality and don't find your love there.What if your loneliness suddenly turns into a nothingness.And you keep on wondering what  the hell did just happen?
They'll say that life has its complications.Its never easy.But are we really ready and willing to take that risk?Yes...we always are.There something in this that makes us stay.Some memories.Not necessarily all good.But all worth having.We willingly step into it but then it becomes out of the power of our free will.Its always a dilemma when being in it.Will I able to trace my steps back to you? Has it strength enough to guide me back home?..Logically everything should fall into its place if we give it sometime..Logic is such a liar..But the hope to our happiness will keep us going on...and you will make me stay!!

All good things

"What truly is logic? Who decides reason? My quest has taken me to the physical, the metaphysical, the delusional, and back. I've made the most important discovery of my life. It's only in the mysterious equation of love that any logical reasons can be found."-The beautiful mind


I remember watching this movie in 2001 or maybe 02.Its funny that years have passed, and suddenly now i get to understand this quote by John Nash.Its not that i lacked the brains then but they say that we can believe in something only when we experience it.The hardest patch of time in one's life is when he fails to understand the difference between reality and imagination.Whenever he starts to believe in one thing the world always takes a turn for surreal.Smothered by the circumstances he starts to doubt the very existence of the most powerful emotion in this world : Love.


Am i not supposed to fall in love? Am i someone who can't know how it feels? Am i someone who can't be trusted with love? Am i not supposed to laugh or cry for the one i love? Suddenly all these questions become mere empty words! Just a mist of my imagination.Do you wanna know whats real?...The way i feel when i hold your hand, thats real, the way i feel when i see the smile on your face, thats real, the way i feel when i hear the sound of your laughter, thats real, the way i feel when i hear you saying 'i love u', thats real.Its real for me..'cause i believe in it.You give me hope.You make me realize that i was just being stupid when i was thinking of those questions.Your touch pushes me to the farthest heights of happiness.You make me experience the immense power of love which makes us the rulers of this world.You make me believe that we are the only ones who have and who could have ever experienced a feeling like this.You make me realize that good things can happen to me too.And you are the reasons for all good things.Your smile is the reason for my happiness.You touch is the reason for my faith.The moments i spend with you are the reason for me to believe that i am the happiest and the luckiest person on the planet.I just want you to understand that you are the reason i am...you are all my reasons!!!!!!

Perfect memory

I was in school.It was 8th of may.We had a celebration of mother's day in our school.I insisted my mom not to come saying that no one really bothers to come.Actually the real reason behind it was that i got scared that my mom would hear about my not-so-famous tales in the school by my teachers.I attended the celebration.It was surprisingly awesome.I wished my mom could see it.I felt real guilt about not inviting her due to my stupid fear.I went home.Hours passed but i just could not get over that guilt.Finally, when i couldn't take it any more ,i stepped out of home and went to buy something for my mom.I bought her a gift.And when i got back home, and saw that she was alone in her room, i mustered the courage to go to her and give her that gift.I was not that smart to choose an appropriate gift for her, well i was not that financially strong either.Come on..i was in school, you can't expect me to buy a gold necklace or platinum ring!Whatever,she just unwrapped the gift.It was a doll.How much more stupid a gift can there be! But to my utter amazement she loved it! i am not saying it because she told me so, but i m sure of it 'cause i could see it in her eyes.Obviously, she didn't expect anything like that from me.She was delighted.She showed it to everyone else around.Came back and hugged me.Years have passed.Memories have burred.But i just can't forget that day, that glow on her face, that delight, that moment worth lasting.

We are very lucky to be born in this world where we can make perfect memories like these without any limit.It is said that the most memorable moments in our life are when we feel some thing we never felt before.We do things we never did before.We meet people with a different point of view..people who change your perspective of things, who drive you out of the wreckage where you have given in, who show you that whatever battles are raging inside us there is always a choice, who show you that there is hope.You asked me what you do to me?..You give me memories.These moment where you wish that time could just freeze.Memories made up of your smile, your happiness.I wish you could just understand the feelings of the bumps in my heart when i listen to the sound of your laughter.I wish you could feel the gravity of every moment that i spend with you.I wish you could see the most beautiful face on earth when accompanied with a smile like i do.I wish you could just trade places with me and experience that heavenly feeling being with someone like you..What you do to me? You give me the assurance that even though if the world slips through my fingers, even if the sun seems tired, even if i have a big fall and the earth doesn't make a sound..you will be there.That is the best thing you could have ever given to me.I will be ever grateful for these treasured memories.Thank you for making my world better than its ever been.Somethings never change.I am so glad they don't.That is why its very important that you understand that i will be there tomorrow,the next day and the day after, you just have to say 'stay'...

The tumultous solitude

Life is good.Its ecstatic to have everyone around.Cheers and content exults you all the time.Its like a dream come true.Or it can be said 'the' dream coming true.But dreams have a nasty habit of going bad when you are not looking.You get that old familiar feeling yet again.You make the wrong moves, let the evil overpower.Its like trying to piece together a broken mirror to have a look at yourself.Your image shifts with it, and you may cut yourself in the act of finding yourself.And the weird thing is its nobody's fault.If you wanna have a look at the guilty, you just need to look in the mirror.The smart thing to do is ignore it, just walk away.But you are not that smart always.

You may have your buddies nosing around graciously all the time.You may have your parents with their never ending inquisition.You may have your love worrying about you all the time.You may have the world running along with you always.But they can't always be there.You can never run from the feeling.If it has been a greater part of your life then it wont just wear off by itself.It may seem like a stretch but thoughts like this always cross the mind when you are away.The sad thing is sometimes you are so far past the point-of-no-return that you couldn't remember what it looked like when you passed it.You don't wanna go back.But the tragic thing is its not always about what you want, but what you need.You will get a tsunami of these confounding thoughts that you have tried to put in the box for a long time.You are pushed back to get raveled inside your own mind.This may seem like nightmare sneaking back on you.In a night mare every choice you make is the wrong one.You feel like yourself back in the gaping hole of your past.You would think that you are damned.

On the contrary, Its not the case anymore.Sometimes we get lucky and things change.This time your solitude will not pose threat to your present joy but will make you realize the importance of it.There is a small voice in your head which says you should be glad.Some say you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye.Well, its your solitude that made this revelation before its time.At least you've something to be grateful for.You will get a strong desire to hold your love tightly in your arms and let everything go.You wont care about any grudges or past battles, you will just run into her arms to feel alive again.There lies the difference.Its not like that you haven't been in the dark before.But this time you have all the strength in the world to hope for the light.

Cold laws of cause and effect

Here is a short story i heard from someone a long time ago.I can't remember his name though.Its funny how sometimes people who make the deepest impression on you are hardest to remember.Its was a story about a girl.She was beautiful.But sadly her beauty was stained by grief and ills of her life.Her parents abandoned her when she was 18.An age to live the life was replaced by cold days in hell for her.She met betrayal, hate, agony, failure at every step she took.And the worst part is she could not even understand where did she go wrong? She felt lonely like hell, full of despair, lost all the reasons to live.

Well, though her life was full of dark times, there was a silver lining too.He had someone who was quite close to her, who could relieve some of her pain.A boy, who loved her.At least he thought he did.And she also loved him back.He wanted to be with her, to have a normal life with her but sadly her past always kept sneaking up to her.She could just not let go of the pain of the people who left her, all alone.The boy didn't want to give up on her.To make her life better, became his only reason to live for.He tried his best to relieve her from everything.He tried to make things normal so that he could have her forever.But still he just could not see the untainted smile on her face, the ultimate exultation.

One day, frustrated, he went for a walk to the church.He knelt down upon his knees before God and screamed "Why can't i get what i deserve?".While he was kneeling on the floor out of no where a priest appeared with bedazzling robes and possessing a divine aura.He spoke in a deep voice to the boy,"Tell me son, what do you want?".Guessing by his appearance, the boy took him as some type of divine incarnation.He instantly begged to him to just make the girl he loved happy.The priest replied that he could do that but also warned him about the laws of cause and effect.If he happen to cause his wish upon the girl there will be some effect on his life too.He thought that this was all he ever wanted so he was ready to put every thing at stake.Seeing the boy's determination the priest replied,"So be it".He, then invited the boy to look into her new life.Amazed and bewildered, he obeyed.But when he saw it he was totally taken aback.She was in the arms of a guy.He couldn't recognize him but he could surely see true love for him in the girl's eyes.He was dumbfounded.Now he understood the cold laws of cause of effect.She was happy but he couldn't be with her anymore.She wouldn't even recognize him anymore.With tears in his eyes he ran for her house to get his love back.

When he reached her house he found the door locked.He went round the back of the house to get in through the window.Suddenly he found himself standing in front of the window of her room.He saw her.She was beautiful.But there was something else.Her beauty was glowed by a smile on her face.He could sense the joy in her eyes.She closed her eyes ,said grace,"Oh lord, i thank you for the life you've given me,the happiness, the love, and i really wish that it stays like this forever"..There.He finally found it.The ultimate exultation on her face.Seeing her, he thought of cold laws of cause and effect.No matter how it came, he finally succeeded in his pursuit.He finally understood this was all he wanted.Staying with her was just not it, loving her was.He just wanted to see her happy and he did it.He couldn't be with her but it was alright.

Whatever you cause, there will be some effect.You just need to see it.You are always the master of your free will.You can just wander around running after whom you love, trying to be with them, having expectations from them.Or you can love someone all your life even if you get nothing in return.You can just hold her always or you can live your life in her one smile.It'll always  be your choice.Love is not just a feeling, its all about what you do.That is why it is called as 'Making love'..

Such great heights

Its may feel like a long weary journey since you were born.Been through so much.Learned many things, met different people, went places, sometimes you may have loved your life, sometimes you may have hated it like hell, ran through a purple patch, saw some dark times, achievements, joy, love, betrayal, heartbreaks, scars, and so on.That sums up almost all your life.Except the fact that this circle of life is still going on.It may sound quite boring to many, asking the same old questions,'Why should we be running in circles forever?'

Simply, 'cause your are destined to do so.You have to stand up every time you fall.You have to go on someway or the other.The gift of life is bestowed upon you and you are supposed to live it to fullest.If you see it the other way around life does give you second chances.You are privileged to be who you are.You may have lived some cold days in hell but you gotta wait for the bright sun of heaven.The grass is not greener on the other side.However far down the wrong road you may have walked you can always turn back and trace back your steps to a better way.You will always retain the power to change your world even if you need to destroy the former and a build a brand new.You can always start from the beginning.And do you know the best part in all this?..You don't have to be on your own!!

You may feel like you don't need anyone.You'll be fine on your own.But the truth is, that's not how we were made! We will always need someone to be with.Someone with whom we can build our memories with.Someone to love, someone to hate, someone to shout at, someone to apologize, someone to laugh at, someone to cry with, someone to miss, someone to share our secrets and regrets, someone to advise us, someone to drive us out of the wreckage where we have given in.You will surely have your ups and downs even when you are with him but whats more important is, you'll not be alone.You will find someone who holds the key to your unhappiness, who knows exactly how to make your world a better place and is completely willing to do so.You will be like puzzle pieces which are perfectly aligned.You will share moments with that person which will last till the end.And if you are willing enough to be there for a while, someday, together, you will break the boring circle of life and you'll find yourself soaring so high above, to a place worth living forever, making memories worth lasting.At such great heights every thing will be so perfect.No one to tell you where to go or where to stay.You'll have unbelievable sights, indescribable feelings like a magic carpet ride.You'll wave down at the world far below.People may scream,"Don't be insane","Its enough,Come down now"! But you know what....we'll stay!!

I think god can explain

"Why did this happen to me? Where did i go wrong? What i've done? What should i do to make it all right? How can i get out of it?" People spend a life time searching the answers for these questions.Well, today is gonna be your lucky day 'cause i m gonna give you a simple solution for all these questions that keep haunting you all the time.Just forget the damn questions!! Yeah!! its simple isn't it? Sometimes ignorance is a real bliss.Just quit whining and enjoy!!

There are many things in this world that we don't understand and some we never wanna know.I cannot see a single feasible reason for anyone to still nose around for some baseless answers.You may keep on asking again and again "When the hell is every thing's gonna be alright?".Well i got news for you, Nothing is wrong to be made right!!Its all in your head.You can be mad like a mad dog at the way things went.You could swear, curse the fates.But when it comes to the end, you have to let go.

Sometimes its meaningless to demand answers.Sometimes its best to go with the flow.Sometimes its best to let god handle it.You may doubt your faith at times when you see some minor glitches in your life.Its because you are unable to see the big picture here.You are unaware of the grand plan which is supposed to happen.You just have to believe that something good will come out of it.Something that you thought you wouldn't have deserved in a million years.Everything happens for a reason.And you would be quite unlucky if you keep on searching for the reason and miss the real effect.God has plans for all of us and we are not 'divine' enough to question his mysterious ways.Some may like it, some may not.

I know life can be damn harsh sometimes.But you will surely experience its flying colors too.I know its not fair enough some times.But then again, it never is.There is always a light at the end of the tunnel.No one can guess how long the darkness will last but if you keep walking, you will surely get to a better place.You will get to the moment of clarity, where you get reborn again.You will experience an inch of life where you will not be answerable to anybody, nobody to tell you that you were wrong, nobody to tell you that it could've been
better, nobody to let you down, you'll have no one to prove, you'll experience the things that are real, you'll have someone who really do care, you'll feel like you've never felt before, you'll be totally through your nightmares into your new dreams.You'll find yourself in a place where you could finally let your heart decide.In that small inch, you will be free.No matter what happens, nobody can ever take that inch away from you.You will get that split second when time slows down,  just stay with it and you can live a life time.

Bullet lodged in the brain

Life knows two miseries,getting what you don't want and not getting what you want.Your whole life circles around it chasing its own tail.Sometimes you feel too close to the thing you have ever wanted but just can't reach it no matter however you spread your hands.Every time you get closer to the edge your fear of falling over pulls you back again.The ghost of your past haunts you to its best which forbids you to move on.Every time you try to convince yourself that this time you're gonna reach it a bomb goes off in your head and the bullet that your life has put in your brain moves a deadly,microscopic distance.And all your thoughts and hope goes blurry again.The colors that you could have had in your life start to run and get smudged and gray again.

When you see the chance to start your life all over again the past evils always come along for a ride.You will find yourself standing on the crossroads and there is no going back.And the odds are you will surely choose the path which drives you away from the wreckage where you've given in.But sadly,the past will always have a way of sneaking up.You'll hear its echo, like a bad replay.You'll misunderstand, get mad at every one who remind you of it,even if its all in your head.You start to get delusional that there is a blind spot in your head which has all the answers.

This is the moment when you get a binary choice.You can keep yourself burning in the fire of all the heartbreaks and scars of your past, with eyes shut, too scared too move, waiting for your present to bleed to death.Or..you can crawl out of it, help your loved ones, make sure the fire doesn't spread and try to fix it.And the only way to do this is to forgive yourself!! Its was not your fault that this happened.Let them think whatever they want to.Its your life and you've gotta live it the way you choose, with the people you choose.Stop looking for your shortcomings.You didn't have any.There is always someone out there who thinks you are perfect.Believe that.Dreams do come true.There are happy endings.You don't get to decide what you deserve.The people who love you will do that for you.Just speak, admit, confess, 'cause words always retain their power.Talking helps.It can set everything straight.By forgiveness you set free the only enslaved soul that you have...yours!! Believe in yourself, the choices that you make.Its time to let go of the bullet that has been lodged in your brain for so long.No amount of pain-killers are gonna alleviate the pain.All it needs is your free will.Choose your happiness.And complete exultation will require the cleansing fire of your confession and trust.Through this cleansing fire, we will spark a new spring of life!!

Lucky you!!

Well this time i am writing just for you.This concerns you and only you.I am gonna confess one thing for sure that i envy you.Yeah..'cause your the luckiest person on earth!! Well there is no need to look shocked 'cause i have a pretty factual explanation here.You maybe surprised to know some of these facts but if you really trust them, you will find that you are really the lucky one!

You must have already started babbling some not so good words for this post.Saying that its total crap, how can you be the luckiest person alive? What's so special in you? What extra gift have you got? You are just like any other person.Well then dear its your lucky day 'cause you are about to know the long forgotten secrets of your life.There are some gifts bestowed on you and you must at least remember them.There is someone who will love you every single moment of your life, there is someone who cares for you always, there is someone who wishes that you are alright, there is someone who prays daily for your success, there is someone who misses you like anything, there is someone who will make you feel special even though you're not 'cause you mean the world to him/her, there is someone who will be there for you at every step of your life and break your fall every time, there someone who can always fix your broken heart, there is someone who will laugh with you, cry with you, and will at least shed tears over your grave, there is someone who has dedicated everything for you, someone who can sacrifice for you, feel for you, understand you, believe in you, watch over you and even die for you.

Are these reasons not proof enough for your sheer luck? Well they are good enough for me.And honestly speaking, they should be more than enough for you to believe that you are the chosen one.I really don't see any scope for more expectations.And if you do then you are really out of mind and god help you! These are the things you could've ever asked for.And trust me they are not that easy to get but rather easy to loose.So don't waste time whining about your fate, just cherish each and every moment of these gifts you got from life.Don't take that someone you've got for granted 'cause if you loose that person it'll be like kicking your own luck.So just embrace your life, value your loved ones, believe in yourself, and you will remain lucky forever!

Walking the line

Its been a long way down the road.Hopping over various ditches, falling in some, tearing down various 'stop' signs, its never been that easy.So much for crying out loud, it was not that difficult either! When we walk the line we don't really care where will it end, whether we will fall over the edge or not, if there is a turn ahead or not, are we going the right way? Will we ever reach our destination?

Do you find it rhetorical? then cheer up..'cause the real core is that it does not matter that u do! Its just senseless to worry about your dreams, your goals.'Cause all that matters is the journey to your dream!Yes! its the line you walk that matters.The long lasting pursuit, the way you walked through it, the people who walked beside you, the hearts you won, the people you made cry, the people you made laugh, the people you loved and the people who loved you, the people you lived for and the people who dedicated their life for you ..they matter.Who cares how your goal is when you tend to love chasing it all your life.There will be allegations.. "all i want is to achieve my goal".Someone who says that must be really pitied 'cause all he wanted to say is that "all i want is someone to walk with me to my goal".Yeah, you will be happy at the end but where will you take all the happiness if you don't have anyone to share it with!! Sometimes we need someone to say "it'll be alright", to tell us "Don't worry, i am with you, i know we are gonna make it!!".Its always a nice feeling when you have someone to back you up.And if you are lucky enough that someone will last even when you have reached your destination.

Some are just too reluctant too move on.They get themselves buried in the questions . "It does not feel right",well then just do the wrong thing this time..simple!! "What will others say",I've got some news for you, these 'others' are not gonna stay with you forever!! these 'others' are not gonna follow you to heaven or hell !
"What happens if..", so just let it HAPPEN!! take risks!! make wrong choices! To hell with the consequences! its your life, live the way you want it..Just trust.Take a step forward, have a leap of faith, sometimes that's all it really takes..
You might not have been acquiring the center stage all the time.Your performance might have been underrated forever.You might have been toiling in the backstage for a long time.Working hard to succeed but never getting what you really wanted.You might not have got the part you deserved.But if you just work diligently and have a little faith in yourself, when you get the spotlight you'll find yourself in the role of a lifetime...